I have tried to keep this blog positive lately and for me that’s a good thing, it means that I’m feeling good right now and enjoying life. Yet, we have those days when we feel low and have the tendency to think a bit negatively, I mean not that I’m not thankful about my life, I am, but sometimes it feels like something is missing. I don’t know, I feel empty sometimes even if I have so much to be happy for. I guess some old habits never dies.
I have changed so much in a year which is crazy but mostly for the better. Last year my ex ended things with me and left me with a million pieces of my heart, at that moment I felt like an unworthy person who didn’t deserve being loved. I cried almost every night for months because I had someone who took me for me and didn’t judge me. At the same period of time I started my Master’s but crazy enough I didn’t let my heartbreak affect my studies and I passed everything and slowly started to accept things. I promised myself that year 2016 would be about self-love and finding myself in a deeper level. I gave dating another shot when I met Daniel and he turned out to be a guy I felt an attraction and connection with and it felt good but I guess he didn’t feel the same and haven’t contacted me since our date in May. Almost a week ago he like a picture at 3 AM that I posted 1,5 weeks earlier, which means that he went to my profile yet can’t write a freaking hello! Anyways, I hope that the next person I’m gonna date will be the one because I’m sick of these foolish games.
I’m happy that I have grown and matured so much in just one year and I have a better self-confidence even if I can have crap days like this. What I love about blogging is that I can just express how I feel and just breathe knowing that there are people out there that understands me, in that sence I don’t feel alone but sometimes I wanna post good things and share my experiences with you. I have been blogging here for two years and I don’t regret a single second of it! Hope I didn’t bore you guys haha but I do love you all for the support that I have gotten from you ❤
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