… I’m ready to move on!
I can’t believe that this day would ever come, since he tore my heart apart and NEVER looked back, not even once to see if I was ok. I have loved him, I have hated him but now he is just a painful memory that I just want to hide inside my heart. A part of me will ALWAYS love him and he will still be my first love but what he put me through emotionally I can never forget. I don’t want to remember anymore or know why!
Exactly 6 months ago, I saw his face for the last time, last time I got to kiss his lips and last day he looked at me but not with love like before, the eyes were dead and cold… like I never mattered to him! He became my best friend and my happiness but also my pain and sorrow. It’s been really hard on me to let him go but only because I still had hope deep down inside that he would come back and fight for me… he never came! The months passed by, the tears streamed down my cheeks, the emptiness inside tore me but the situation gave me more motivation to be strong and reach my goals for myself rather than getting depressed again. People say that time heals wounds, well right now I need time to focus on myself but if I meet someone on the way, I will at least try!
Bye bye my goldfish! I’m letting you go…
– Hugs x heart –