Things are really strange sometimes and I have no idea what I’m doing right now haha…
Well in my previous post I asked you guys to wish me luck, some of you were like: for what? The thing is for those who don’t know my ex broke up with me over a month ago because it became too much for him even though he had strong feelings. We didn’t speak after the breakup because I needed the time to find myself again and to leave him alone aswell because our conversation ended with me yelling: Have a great life and hanging up (yes, that was not mature at all).
Yesterday I decided to write him a text:
Hey! I was in old town today and passed the comic store, it reminded me of the time we went there to look for your book that didn’t want to be found, it made me smile. It was a great and fun day. Hope everything is good with you and that you had a great summer.
I was so nervous and feeling sick to my stomach but I knew it was the right thing to do because what we had was special and I didn’t want it to end the way it did but guess what? No answer and I sent it 9 PM of course you feel extra conscious and scared that the man you have feelings for will reject your text. I started to doubt and say: he doesn’t care anymore, I better move on and hand in the towel. Met up with my friend today who said to give it time and if she got a text like that she would be really happy but don’t respond immediately to seem desperate. She calmed me down and said you did your best and that’s all you can do. I mean yesterday I even accepted that it was over and that I had to let it go. So around 10 PM today while talking to a friend on the phone I get a text from him:
That was a good day, a good memory even if I’m blubb blubb on the details othervise I’m surviving, I can’t complain. Hope you are doing well. Hugs
I was in shock because I didn’t expect him answering on my text at all. (sidenote: He use to say he had a goldfish memory so everytime I said: Do you remember this that that and he normally answered no. I used to say: *Blubb blubb* referring to the goldfish just to tease him, he normally gave me the look and jokely said fuck you). So it was really sweet that he wrote that part in the text. I’m still keeping it low and not having too high expectations and being careful. I’m not answering right away because I want to give it some time and not seem needy or anything.
So what should I do next? What should I say?
– Hugs x heart –