Long time no see! It feels like forever that I was here and blogged about my life and thoughts. As you remembered lots was going on and I got my heart-broken by a guy who I really liked (still do). I have to be honest that it’s been really hard and my heart have been in pain and it still hurts especially knowing that it was right because my gut feeling said yes, yes, yes even though there were some bumps that in my opinion were not impossible to solve but he had other things in mind. Oh it’s so hard to explain because it’s one of those things that you just know is meant to be… but yes I have been done a lot of thinking and I’m in love with him and can see a future with him BUT he has some issues that took us to this situation and out of fear he blamed it on me. So at this moment he was not mature enough to be serious even though he claimed that he was. Well the real story will be for a future post because right now I don’t feel like explaining what happened. Yesterday was the first time I said out loud: I accept that it is over and I have to let it go! Even if I have strong feelings and is hurting.
I will be ok and if we are meant to be, we will be… otherwise there is someone else for me!
One of the biggest changes in my life is my attitude to life and I have striving to be a more positive person and work on my flaws because I can’t hide from my inner demons any more and I need to deal with everything from the past and let me say that I have come a LONG way to really try to be a stronger person who is ready for anything now. Of course I’m facing lots of bumps right now since I changed ALL my plans for me but also to be with this guy! I don’t regret my decision at all, I’m happy that I chose to stay instead of going to the UK. For those who don’t know, I had plans on studying my Master’s in the UK because I wanted to get away from everything but then things changed my mind and I realized that my life here isn’t bad at all and I have never been happier so why leave just for the sake of leaving. I got an admission in Uppsala University to study Master’s in Management and Business and Uppsala is considered one of the best schools in the world with lots of opportunities.
Yes I chose to stay for my happiness! Right now I’m not the happiest girl but I know it will be alright and keep an open heart and be positive. My biggest stress right now is to find a place to stay in Uppsala and it’s really hard to find something. We will see what will happen but one thing is for sure, part 2 of year 2015 will be about changes and more self-love. I will start blogging again and you will follow my journey from Stockholm to Uppsala and enter a new chapter of my life with me and I’m excited about it even if it will be hard at times but I have strength to make it!
Other than that, I came home few days ago from my Thailand/Dubai trip and I will make sure to make posts about it and share some pictures because it was really lovely and I needed to get to the peaceful place like Thailand to get some positive energy! I hope you all are having a great summer with lots love, happiness and good memories!
It feels good to be back! I missed you ALL!! ❤
– Hugs x heart –